So I am free! I believed this up until now, but
today I truely experience it! The Freedom, I realize and understand today is
breaking your own interior barriers, removing the chains and setting your soul,
your life free! And trust me only you can win your freedom! Rest all that we
say are plain simple excuses – parents don’t allow, society is against it,
friends disagree and one can go on with the excuses!
I have heard about bliss,
read poems on it, and I thought that I have experienced bliss, when in love or
with my friends or with a gift/purchase. But no, none of it was bliss, yes it
made me happy, but bliss I found within me, from me when I settled completely
in my being, without anyone/anything!
Yes, life changes, moments pass, I am
aware my ‘this state’ might not be forever, but that is ok, because in this
cycle of life, when I will come next time back to my 'this state', it will be a
better one than what it is now! The best part is dropping of ideas and wants
[which we don’t really want, its a way to keep ourselves entertained!] I wanted
to be in love because the idea was that it feels great, I wanted to get married
because I thought its an acceptance from the world. I wanted to possess a
certain thing, because I thought it will make me look good.
And then I woke up
one day, thinking, what on earth am I doing! For the sake of some ideas, some
of them which are not even mine, I am living a life based on that! No wonder, I
never felt really content at any of those moments! Yes love is great, but I
will not be in love for its greatness. I will love, when I will want to love,
not for greatness or happiness, but just simply to love. Yes marriage is good,
but I will marry when my heart will permit me to, not to have a certain
acceptance from a society [which is build up on some really contradictory and
masochistic ideas!]
This is my journey, its my child, I will take care of it
however difficult it gets. I understood all this when I took my full responsibility
that I shall be by my side in sickness and in health, I promise to accept myself
completely and stand by myself throughout until death do me and me apart!
