Excitement in Simplicity...

Why does it become so easy to like something or someone and then so very difficult to let it go and move away from it/them? A part of us likes to cling on[we might not admit, but we all do it..unknowingly] and a part of us also likes the fact that someone else too clings on to us [again we would refuse to admit]. My point here is, why do we become so weak or if I may say, so stupid? Why do we drive ourselves into unwanted zones and then expect to be wanted there! Dint we read the sign at the beginning itself ‘not wanted’. We make an excuse here too,’ we thought we could change things’ Really? Why would we think so!? 

Why are we hell bent on having so much of drama? Not only it takes away time, energy, emotions, gives you pain, but it also keeps you away from the good things of life, things that we deserve, things that are best for us.

If we are sad, we will listen to sad songs! Why? We are already sad, why do we want to feel more sad and lost. Are we secretly enjoying our sadness? How harmful is this! Imagine this - We are the biggest hurdle of our life.

We like stories, and we like them more if they have twists and we do that to our lives too, create unnecessary twists and hurdles in life. Seriously when I actually sit down and think, I know it for sure, life isn’t that difficult as we make it, its simple, its easy, we just need to slightly shift our perspective and then everything will be clear! Its shocking to believe how we make our life exactly opposite of what we have thought. Its all the game of desires and the inner most desires. We need to figure both of them out! Lets put an end to self-destruction. How much ever I love drama, today I take my step towards a drama-free life, I say no to drama, yes to simplicity! I say no to self created hurdles and yes to life’s gifts for me! I refuse to screenplay my life and accept the suspense, because there lies excitement in simplicity too!

Why not me?

Why not me?

I know someday the flowers, you will notice,

The fragrance you will enjoy,

When the shield of love will be around you,

When the longingness of being together will hold you

I know one day, the magic will work,

Here goes the wand and there will be the misty love!

And then will start the series of stories,

‘I once knew no love, but all I know today is only love!’

It will all be about her, the day, the night, the moon, the stars!

I know someday, you too would enchanted..

What i really don’t know is..

Why not me?

Its the horizon you see, which is just an illusion,

A trick we let ourselves tricked into

I wonder am i the trick or its the horizon?

Let the reality go by,

I wish I could be atleast an illusion

Be a desire, be a little wanted, be a small dream..

I know someday the world will be different for you

I wonder, why I couldn’t build that..

I just think..

Why not me?

To the man who introduced me to love...

This blog is about me, every word here describes me, my emotions, my thoughts. I just had to write a few words about one of the most intimate part of my life – movies. And in this part of my life, the dean was, is and always be Yash Chopra!

My words might not be able to do justice, but this is my way of paying tribute to the man who introduced ‘love’ in my life! He gave me the angry young man and later turned him into this extremely romantic man that I till date drool – Mr. Bachchan! 

He gave me silsila where i cannot take my eyes off, 

of my favourite pair Amitabh-rekha. 

Everytime i watch Rekha in silsila 

and everytime i go like ’wow’! 

The brilliance of ‘lamhe’ still leaves me

speechless! 

And I don’t remember since when i have been going like ‘shona shona shona..chandni..oh meri chandni’! The intense romantic scenes, the rain sequences, chiffon saris, lata mangeshkar’s songs! It has always been just so awesome!

Why? Oh why don’t we have more of his films! I was disappointed when he announced ‘jab tak hai jaan’ as his last movie, and i told my friends, ‘oh he is just saying it, you see in couple of years, he will announce his next movie!’ 

There is so much to write, feel, talk. 

I would rather sum it up in this line - 

I love him, respect him, idolize him. Yashji, you will always be the best!

him...him...him [how many more] and her...

How bad could it get, when it was only the best she thought,

He was the bad boy, she found good in him too!

In the matured one, she found the child!

He was Mr. Perfect, little mischief deeds here and there kept her smiling!

With someone who wanted nothing, she left saying she could never have nothing to give!

When there were plans of life ahead, the sunset decided a different course!

Then there is him who wants less, but silently wishes all, she gives him all silently,willingly...

For every him, she somehow turned out to be the step before the ultimate happiness!

Where does she step now? Is she someone’s ultimate?

How bad could it get, when it was only the best she thought.

Some one’s fantasy, some one’s rebound,

In her kitty she carries her question mark..

Is here her answer?

is this the end of the search or beginning of a new find?

Wish she takes a step back, only if she would know, there is more to her best!

Only if she could stop playing with the words ‘i am fine’...

Only if she could break down and hate them all!

Maybe if she would stop looking for, she would find one!

How bad could it get, when it was only the best she thought.

The thug and my mess!

When all was a mess, it was still not enough,

I thought of a mess, which was prettier..

I smile, i laugh, even though i know,

The monster is round the corner,

At least those few miles i will feel the love

Yes it is love again, and it is me again,

We go hand-in-hand, partners in crime!

You are the thug, you never denied,

Meanwhile I fantasize a romance with you.

Somewhere, at a certain point, the thug knows...

He knows, his heart does skip a beat, but not enough to change the route!

Me will say never to stay, our destinations are forbidden...

But the path we share, must i confess, i love

Till eternity, warmth will always spread, love will always linger,

When thoughts will wander to our path.

For if i may say, i love this path, i love this thug

The day we separate, will be the end of that path,

Not our journey,

someday we will sit down again,

With glasses clinging, memories intact,

will remember the little love story of the thug and my mess!

Cheers!

Here I am on the last page today. A chapter that stirred a lot in me, brought me illusions, smiles with sadness, hopes and revival of dreams. One of the most memorable chapters uptil now.Today I want this chapter to end. I am looking for a new beginning, a new chapter. 

Life has given me a wonderful opportunity, I intend to do justice! Would I want to erase things from past? Without any hesitation, I would say, Not a single moment...each of those moments came together to give me the the future of my dreams. 

Its too early to forgive and forget as of now, but I know I will be there too, very soon. Looking forward to the change, and knowing myself better. Many more chapters to come, infinite ends and beginnings. 

I choose to end my end and start my beginning with a applause of appreciation for life and its journey. Life  aint unfair, it just has its own way, and I choose to trust the process of life! Cheers to the journey from here onwards! Cheers to me and my beliefs! I am just being modest – I deserve awesomeness!

Moving on...

Two words.. ’moving on’ could be as simple as moving on to another topic of discussion or as complicated as moving on in life...

Have done both of it, but this time I could say its ‘the father’ of all ‘moving ons’!

Oh yes! Thousands of questions, millions of doubts,shattering of the trust system,destruction of confidence,lose of emotions and I could go on. But amidst all this, somewhere in the corner ‘Life’ does smile at you, because it knows, soon you too will be smiling!

I read somewhere, ’You were never a waste of time. You were just the harsh realization that I could do better!’ Today when I think of it, each word of this statement seems right. 

But yes there are wounds, deep ones. There are still some mornings when you wake up and you realize, you were crying in your sleep. There are still some of those laughs, you laugh just to hide your tears. And then there is that excruciating pain somewhere in you and suddenly the emptiness. 

Its those time when you realize you were so stupid to crib about any other thing, because now those things seem awesome. But towards the end, there is a beautiful gift for you. The gift of 'life', to start new, to start better!

I also stumbled upon this line, ’letting go is easier, when we have someone to rebuild with us one brick at a time!’ I am super lucky to have my people, my angels with me! And I know what I build this time will be the most beautiful, most divine, because it has God’s wish in it and ‘life’s support! It cant go wrong, thats my belief. 

It hurts, but soon, there will be enough happiness to overshadow and fade off that pain. And I have taken my first step towards it. I am moving on!