Monday, May 30, 2016

A conversation

It was one of those afternoons, where I decided to drop off all the plans that I had [not that I had many, but usually I never have many plans!] The first summer rains had decided to finally pour! Also a parcel had arrived for me, it was my birthday gift from a very close friend, Penaaz. And like always I decided to tear open the parcel [and like always I couldn’t and had to use a cutter!] It was a purple nail polish, the first thought that came to mind then was that, that morning I was searching for something purple to use or wear, I couldn’t find anything [even I was amazed, since I love purple]. I really was ecstatic and at that moment I knew, that the universe has given me the sign that I was asking for.[Yes, we get these signs in smallest possible ways, we should just know to recognize them and believe in them, at least I do] Sometimes we need our loved ones to give us an assurance, I needed that from the divine and I received it!
I immediately starting applying the nail polish and while I was doing so, I had this conversation with myself…Actually wait, let me first tell you what has been happening, then the conversation and this whole post will make sense.
So well, since a couple of weeks, I could watch myself being hassled, not being able to concentrate on ‘now’, over-thinking and just not being able to find that happy place within me.
So yeah, back to applying the nail polish, I started talking to me [very lovingly] and this is how the words were strung
‘Kya hua hai? What has happened to you? You realize that the way you are being these days will not help you at all.’ YES
‘What are you worried about..huh? don’t you trust the universe?’ I DO
‘You have come so far in your life, you have dealt with all kinds of hurdles, don’t you trust yourself to make things happen’ I DO
‘Then just live the present, work for the future [I know you are doing that consistently], and let me remind you of your own mantra ‘trust the process of life’ ‘
Those few minutes brought me back to the centre. We keep wandering around, and it is fine as long as we can centre ourselves.

Confessions of a ‘work in progress’ person – 

We tend to think, that now that we are becoming aware and are understanding the way the nature works, so now we will not fall in the trap of sadness or unpleasant situations. That is not true
Further down the path, you realize that the path of self-realization/discovery [any fancy words?!] doesn’t make you immune from the human emotions and situations.
You just learn to recognize the source of the situations and deal with it wisely.
Also eventually you realize that your ideas, beliefs do not serve you anymore, so you need to drop them. It may take some time, but the realization itself changes your life for better.
You learn to not get crazily affected by the harshness of the situation and become aware enough to understand the lesson and break the destructive patterns.
More than anything else, I am writing this post to remind myself that I am taken care off, I am blessed and so are all of you.

[I had written this post almost 10 days ago, just forgot to put it up.]