Post 13 - Life my cocktail!

You could be drunk with none at all

I could be sober with a neat and on the rocks

Dont you curse my martini,

Not a word for my margarita

You judge me by what I hold in my hands,

I am glad,

you show me what level your brain stands

You put at display, set of your values

Some yours, some read, some heard

My display is me, my inside is me

It is all me, none read, none heard

With a beer, when I say cheers,

Don’t you narrow those eyes and

Give me names

Just be ok with me, don’t be lame

No harm I am upto, No bad I do

Its just a small gesture, in my way

As I take a sip, 

I sigh and say

The best cocktail is ‘life’

I cherish it night and day!

Cheers!

Post 12 - The story never ends...!

As filmy as this sounds, but I completely believe in this 

'Agar kissi cheez ko dil se chaaho, to puri kayanat use tumse milane ki koshish mein lag jaati hai!'

Later when I read 'The secret' I knew, my belief was not just filmy, but totally ture too!

My this post is dedicated to my dear friend Priyanka!

The story never ends, even after we die, the story lives...It just never ends!

Post 11 - Ever thine, Ever mine, Ever ours!

There is so much I want to give

So much more I wish to live

Only If I could see a shadow, alongwith mine

And if there would be us and not just mine

Red with rage, not because there is anger,

But an urge for someone to pat my cheeks

go that extra mile,

to make me smile!

Is it me who pushed him away or he lost his way?

On my bed, waiting i lay

I sleep well, live well,

I know, he who loves will wish me to be fine!

So here I am, all fine, all in love

To take some peace, some more of love

To be a little shy, to be a little more blissful

And

There is so much I want to give

So much more I wish to live

Only If I could see a shadow, alongwith mine

And if there would be us and not just mine

......................

As I am writing this, I think of the letter by Ludwig Van Beethoven called 'Immortal beloved' and the last line of the letter ,'Ever mine, Ever Thine, Ever ours!' Everytime I read it, I think of this line, I just feel, this is my line, it just seems it has come out of my heart, my soul! 

The letter - 

While still in bed my thoughts turn towards you my Immortal Beloved, now and then happy, then sad again, waiting whether fate might answer us - I can only live either wholly with you or not at all, yes I have resolved to stray about in the distance, until I can fly into your arms, and send my soul embraced by you into the realm of the Spirits - yes unfortunately it must be - you will compose yourself all the more since you know my faithfulness to you, never can another own my heart, never – never – O God why do I have to separate from someone whom I love so much, and yet my life in V[ienna] as it is now is a miserable life - Your love makes me at once most happy and most unhappy - at my age I would now need some conformity[,] regularity of my life – can this exist in our relationship? – Angel, I have just heard that the mail coach goes every day – and thus I must finish so that you may receive the letter immediately. – be patient – only through quiet contemplation of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together – Be calm; for only by calmly considering our lives can we achieve our purpose of living together.- be calm - love me - today - yesterday - What yearning with tears for you - you - you my life – my everything - farewell - oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your Beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever us. 

Post 10 - The Cliche..!

Yes there are times, when we just cant figure out why a particular individual came in our lives, took control completely and then banished. Ofcourse it hurts, leaves us clueless, but after it has passed, after it is over, in few years, we do understand why it happened! And most of the times, we feel grateful about it, because at the end, it gave us something much better! And its cliche but true, it all happens for the best!

Post 9 - You, Me and Energy!

It is all about energy, you, me and the whole universe! It is very evident in our daily lives! When we are happy, everything around us makes us happier and in sadness, the same things make is sad! Its very simple, we attract the similar energy that we have! If we are happy, we attract happiness, If we are judgemental, we attract judgements from other people, if we love ourselves, we attract love and acceptance from the outer world! So yes, we can decide the energy we want and the energy we want to attract, in other words, we can have the life of our choice!

Today I decided to concentrate on releasing the blocks that are blocking the intended energy to go out in the universe! And I did this my way [the workout way!]

2 hours of yoga on the chanting of the ‘Maha Mrutunjay jaap’!

Om Tryambakam Yajamahe

Sugandhim Pushtivardhanam

Urvarukamiya Bandhanan

Mrityon Mukshiya Maamritat

English translation

Om We worship and adore you. O three-eyed one O Shiva. You are sweet gladness, the fragrance of life, who nourishes us, restores our health and causes us to thrive. As in due time the stem of the cucumber weakens, and the gourd is freed from the vine, so free us from attachment and death and do not withhold immortality

Throughout the yoga session my intent was to release the negative/unwanted blocks which was blocking Me from getting what I am seeking! I have been feeling very light [floating kind of feeling] since then! And I know I am closer to what I want! 

And as Rumi quotes ’ What you seek..is seeking you!’,somehow I feel I have bridged the distance between both, me and what is seeking me!

Post 8 - Thank you 'Zeus'!

I lived with pets half of my life...I had two dogs, they were lovely, but I could never really be friendly with them [I was always scared of them] Yes, I loved them a lot, they are no more now and I fondly remember them, but I could never hold them, play with them. 

This continued uptill recently!

I don’t have my own pets now, but I have some of my favorite pets of my friends! And out of all I love ‘zeus’ the most! ‘zeus’ the cat! He is amazing, full of energy, doing funny things and everytime i am surprised by him!

I noticed one thing, As i became friendly with animals, I became friendly with myself too. I feel more grounded, my horizon towards life expanded. My belief in infinite possibilities strengthened and I found more love within me!

Thank You Zeus!

Post 7 - I am the universe..

A man has great powers, powers to change around his life completely! Its just that he is unaware of this power or just simply intimidated by his own power and hence does not acknowledge it!

Post 6 - New First..

Now, as I switched on my laptop to write my post, I had no idea what i will write..and I just started typing the below lines..half way through I realized they are in hindi..My first! 

I continued, Its something new I did and I have a new First! 

Wohi sham, wohi sawera..

Havao mein wohi subah ki agarbati ki bheeni khusboo

Kaano mein phir pados ke mandir ke ‘hare ram hare krishna’

Din chariya bhi kuch aisa, kuch waise..

Aaina bhi wohi bole, wohi kahani jo kal thi..

Dopahri, kaarkhane ka wohi siren jaisa shor..

To phir kya aaj alag hai...

Kya hai badla

Bas yehi..

Ke aaj pehli baar laga..

Kuch nahi badla..

Kuch nahi alag..

Post 5 - Just Now...

A windy path..breezy day

Walking closer and closer

I sense his presence

He knows I am here too

Its sometime now,

Just when is this now?

And there flying around in the wind

Are my thoughts with wings!

Will there be tears of joy?

Or a shout out for celebration?

Will the eyes meet, then the lips curl into smile?

Or simply a bear hug?

Every breath then would be just asking..

‘where were you?’

The blush on my face will deepen

’what took you so long?’

His touch would then murmur

‘Its us, its magic, it had to take some time!’

A promise in our hearts we make then

This magic is now real, and forever will be ours!

And as the wings of my thoughts rest, I whisper a silent wish

let the now be soon, let it be just now!

Post 4 - Magic with yarn... 'Mandala'

Its amazing how one can weave their inner most thoughts/ feelings on sticks with yarn! With the all those colours and patterns, comes out the solutions for the biggest problems! And I am so glad that I got to learn this amazing art of weaving mandalas!

I just clicked immediately with Mandalas. It works like ‘google’ for me! Giving me my answers!

After every mandala I make, I feel happy, content and the best part that I have realized about myself in this process is, that I really enjoy sharing the good in life with people around me! Not once have I made a mandala, looked at it and felt,’ Oh, this is so pretty, I will keep it for myself!’

I have spend from 3 hours to like 4 days making mandalas in every possible colours, sizes, patterns and each one has made me more receptive towards life!

Another pleasure I receive is when I teach someone weaving a mandala. Its incredible to see what they weave, using the same technique as yours.

Mandalas are visually so beautiful, that you could stare at them for hours together and yes I feel the vibrations around me full of positive, protective energy! Its just magic with yarn!

Here is all the magic I have created - click hereMandala 

P.S - I am extremely thankful to Prerna and Julia for introducing me to this Magic!

My 1st Mandala 

Most recent mandala

Post 3 - Ho'oponopono prayer

This is 'MY' prayer! Its like I keep it in my pocket, and often I catch myself repeating it in my mind!

Post 2 - 'Now'!

So today I visited my school [had some work]. Was there for about 15 minutes, and in those few moments I had my 12 years of life flash in front of me! And then I realized, those were the BEST 12 years!

It was the same jittery feeling when I entered the office, I suddenly became more aware when I saw the principal! I still had the urge to ring the school bell! [ I should have done it, I wouldn’t have been punished!!]

I feel the most grateful today towards life, because when I look back, I realize, I have more reasons to smile than to be sad!

Look at the irony, [its a cliché, still] back then in school, all we thought was of future[growing up] and today most of us would agree with me, when I would say, ‘lets go back to school, it was so much more fun!’ 
Where is the ‘NOW’? We have never lived the ‘NOW’.

Keeping everything aside, if we come to think of, only ‘now’ is the truth, only ‘now’ is real and the power of ‘now’ is often underestimated.

At this very moment, I choose to live in my ‘Now’, and I already feel good about it, because my ‘now’ has everything that I ever wanted!
I am a superwoman, and my power is, the power of now!

 P.S - 1) Though I believe, had it not been for my school, I still would have had you guys, but anyways, 'Thank you, St. Ursula, for giving me life's best gift, Jess and Saxy!'

         2) I wish to thank all my classmates [and few batchmates!] to make the beginning of my life so beautiful. It will always be cherished! Lots of love! Thank You all!

Post 1 - Commitment...

[My first post of the '30 days commitment'  each day a new post, each day discovering a little more! 30 days of knowing myself better!]

Oxford dictionary defines commitment as, ’the state or quality of being dedicated to a cause, activity, etc.’

Commitment, something that I am trying to figure out recently. Something which I did not really think about much a few months back. It was just a random word, used frequently in and around.

But as we move ahead in life, we come across various concepts, some we let it pass by [we might probably come to it later sometime] and some we get hooked to, trying to understand it. I am trying to understand, ‘commitment’ the need and the place for it in my life.

I came across this very interesting pattern. Interesting because, I have been through the lower two phases, infact I till use it in an itsy-bitsy manner! But majorly, at this moment, I am on the third level, 'compliance'. Yes, I am trying to bridge the gap and reach the 'I will do it' phase.

Why commitment?
I realized out of all the fun and weird stuff, learnings and lessons stuff that I have been doing for all these years, I have been lacking commitment [towards myself]

When it struck me?
The time I realized I want a commitment from the external world, from other people, is when I looked inside and questioned myself, Am I committed in any way to myself? what was surprising is that I couldn't give an affirmative answer immediately, i had to think!
I have taken myself for granted for a really long time [we all do it.]
as cliche as it sounds, I decided to make a commitment to myself, for my well-being, my happiness, my inner peace. 
Once I started this, I started getting my answers from the universe/external world also.
The process is still on, may more answers to get.
I believe eventually i will get, and then there will be new questions too!
Lets us all Commit if nothing more than atleast ' to live a GOOD life!

P.S - In the journey of discovering commitment, I am taking some help from my blog! Its a 30 day commitment of writing. 30 new posts!

Thank You...!

Miracle! Yet another miracle life gifted me! This time the miracle was-‘A new chance’!

A chance for a better life of which I can only be grateful because I already have a great life and now its just going to get better! WoW! Am I life’s favourite or what?!

I have another shot at love, more happiness and more smiles!

‘It just happens, if you have thought of something all your life, it will happen, there are no two ways about it. You just need to hang in there and keep faith!’ These aren’t just words, this is what I saw, this is what I learnt and this is what I know. It might sound dreamy, but it works for me!

Atleast I am better off those people, who believe in being realistic and believe they have power over other lives! Only if they could for a moment hear themselves and realize how foolish they sound!

I just feel, lets not try to change others, or the world. Let us first try and know about ourselves. Let us first respect our own life journey, rest all will fall in place!

I will be clear, I am not here for any social service. If I manage to live a good life and value its gift, I believe I in my own way would be able to give back a lot to society. It all starts from within you.

This post is my way of saying ‘Thank you’ to life and the universe!