Sunday, April 27, 2014

Mysteries - let it be!

So how did some of us get into this quest of knowing our feelings and trying to be aware and understand them, where as some of the others live their whole lives without even wondering something as basic as ‘why are they doing a particular thing?’To such people if you ask this question, they would without any consideration just use the words,‘everyone does it!’And they are ok with that!And all of us co-exist in the same world, it does seem magical to me sometimes!
Inspite of the whole search party going on within us, there are certain things which we we just cannot find the answers for, maybe they are supposed to be mysterious or maybe the question is wrong. In such cases it is very important to know where to stop the search, because you may get the answer in the next moment or never!
A couple of days back a friend raised a question, I did answer it, but I wasn’t convinced by my answer. I decided to speak with my bestie about it and she told me, including herself and some other close common people to us, that question does not have an answer. So I found a mystery of my life [which is a mystery for my other friends too, hence going by the popular belief that if majority feel so, it must be correct, I suppose it is!]
Now the thing is, should I dig in or should I let it be? Solving the mystery might have its consequences on the other hand, if I let it be, It might just slip back again into the storage of my so many unattended thoughts.
And me being me, I have decided I will let go of it. I have a very beautiful and active present and I have a future to look forward to. I wish to do complete justice to it.
And as far as ‘the mystery’ is concerned, If it has to solve; it will or I’ll be just that girl, who weaved mandalas, lived movies, loved stilletoes and discussed mysteries over lattes with her bestie – The C.A! That aint bad!

Sunday, April 20, 2014

The Inside Out...

And when you thought you were at your happiest best,
All around, surround lovely and sorted
A morning happened, a day arose
For a surprise pleasant,
Something like a bliss, flawed yet divine!
And just like that you knew,
This was more than the happiest best
Much more than All, around, surround lovely and sorted
I found him at my best and he made me even better
And hence It is always, the inside out
The happier I am, the happiest I get,
It is always more..much more.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Needs and wants...Its all an illusion?

So what is it about relationships? Why do we need validation through them? I have always thought of relationships as a strength then why do we end up making those our weaknesses? There are various aspects to a relationship, I sometime feel one of it is ‘escapism’ We want to escape from the reality and hence we try getting busy in a relationship, being what we are not, just putting up an image and getting so habituated to it that we start living a fake life. There are times we just want to prove ourselves, get approval and feel wanted hence we find all this in a relationship. And then there is a feel good factor or societal pressure or feeling of being left out. I guess the list will never end.
The point I am trying to make is, if we dint have any of these needs, would we still have relationships? So does that mean, all relationships emerge from a certain need? And then the question would be, is love too a need? Do we love because it is a need or it is a want?
In my experience, I have had my share of needs and tried to fulfil them through various means, and then I realized eventually that none of them were a need, it was just an illusion of a need, and once that became clear, I dint have one and hence i did not feel the anxiety to fulfil them. So at the end of the day, it is just a perspective. 
Isn’t everything a perspective? It is just one world but each one of us has a world, making it a million of worlds. Each world is different and yet it is only one world! All needs for someone would be some other person’s wants and vice-versa. And to top of it, it might all just be an illusion! So lets just experience our separate worlds the way we want and live our illusion! It isn’t that bad!