Needs and wants...Its all an illusion?

So what is it about relationships? Why do we need validation through them? I have always thought of relationships as a strength then why do we end up making those our weaknesses? There are various aspects to a relationship, I sometime feel one of it is ‘escapism’ We want to escape from the reality and hence we try getting busy in a relationship, being what we are not, just putting up an image and getting so habituated to it that we start living a fake life. There are times we just want to prove ourselves, get approval and feel wanted hence we find all this in a relationship. And then there is a feel good factor or societal pressure or feeling of being left out. I guess the list will never end.

The point I am trying to make is, if we dint have any of these needs, would we still have relationships? So does that mean, all relationships emerge from a certain need? And then the question would be, is love too a need? Do we love because it is a need or it is a want?

In my experience, I have had my share of needs and tried to fulfil them through various means, and then I realized eventually that none of them were a need, it was just an illusion of a need, and once that became clear, I dint have one and hence i did not feel the anxiety to fulfil them. So at the end of the day, it is just a perspective. 

Isn’t everything a perspective? It is just one world but each one of us has a world, making it a million of worlds. Each world is different and yet it is only one world! All needs for someone would be some other person’s wants and vice-versa. And to top of it, it might all just be an illusion! So lets just experience our separate worlds the way we want and live our illusion! It isn’t that bad! 

Two best friends and a Greek god!

Girly afternoon, giggles and talks.

A movie and gossip round the clock

And when just we were done complaining for the day,

Appeared a greek God in casuals, if I may say!

Crispy cotton, white shirt on those shoulders wide

Blue Denims perfectly fit,

We stared at him, and several times died!

With the face so gorgeous and the body a masterpiece,

He stood so close, he took our breath away!

With starry eyes we secretly glanced

And envied the pretty lass he held.

Oh, we sighed, he was some sight!

As he walked away, we drove away

We high-fived God, for his well done job!

With this was formed,

A new memory of two best friends and a Greek god!

It is a fix!

When the days start shy and the nights end bold,

You know what has been in store!

You have been there, done that.

Its his word for mine, its our word for the day and night!

It is a fix, It had always been, the fog uplifted today,

We saw it today, in the brightest ray.

Not too late, not way too soon

Just as it is, a perfect boon!

Its his word for mine, its our word for the day and night!

Lips...happy lips!

It is those ecstatic crease, the corners of my eyes embrace,

as my lips graciously turn into a smile so happy,

naughty playful lips they are, the fidgety fingertips take a chance,

a slight moan, caress the upper lip,

while the lower one shares a word or two as its bitten gently on one of its side.

More  they  yearn for, a little extra they ache for

Why would the tongue not join in?!

And now its a different game all together!

So hey you there, thats how my lips write their own story.

With yours to share, another story to narrate,

As ONE, ours will be a different game all together!

You for you..

So there are times, A few moments,

A certain phase,

When you look around,

People and people,

None, then too glance at you.

No words , no signs of recognition.

How hazy can you be; to not even be bumped into by chance.

Its then when you look inside,

And you just see one whole person,

Completely, totally, only for you.

And that is you!

And then there is a smile, a sigh of relief,

Because no matter what,

Good or bad,

Happy or sad,

You will always be there for you.

Flourish this relation,

Nourish this bond.

This one for sure is forever!

Thank You 2013!

Its been a magical year for me, and all these people have sprinkled the magic dust! I want to thank you all and wish you all a beautiful, happy 2014, full of love and a year where all our wishes come true!

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I somehow thought of starting with you Menon

Priyanka Menon – We are on different pages today, yet there is a certain connection, a very strong one. There will always be concern and love for you, you most definitely are a part of my life. I might not always agree with your ways, but I will always support you, if you would need any!

Ashutosh – The old man I know! I cannot pin-point as to how you have made a contribution to my life, but you have, in a very memorable manner. You are always very fondly remembered and as long as you grow older, and I get younger, you will always be loved!

Aditya – Sonu/motu I don’t know what went wrong, U were just not there, but whatever it is/was. I just wanna say, in whatever part of this world you stay, you will always be very close to me. I love you and miss you so much motu. Just want to hug you tight!

Akanksha and Anchal – My chicky micky, I just feel so happy to know you guys are in my life, you’l are like these precious gifts, I love to make you guys happy and pamper you. And its a whole lot, including Anushi and Ayush! My customised bunch of cousins! My very own!

My Family – Its been a year of experiences and ‘situations’ for the four of us.  I understand what they say, and they definitely make an attempt to understand me, here is wishing 2014 will understand all of us

 I don’t say it ever, but I am glad you are there [thats for my brother]

Ninad – No, I am not mentioning you out of any compulsion. I truely am thankful for your presence. I wish for you, the best of everything and may 2014 be the year of manifestations for you!

Prachir – You just fit perfectly in my life. I know you laugh it all off, I also know you are there, always! Fatanglu, world seems fun with you around! You will always be one of my most closest and loved one!

Bimlaji – My gym trainer, who has motivated me, and managed to play along well, with all my tantrums! Thank you!

Prerna – As I believe 2013 was a magical year for me, and you have helped me create the magic! Thank you, for this beautiful year, looking forward to another magic – 2014!

Girija – It has been a fun ride, and cherry on top was zambhala! Many more trips in 2014! Bags packed!

Nitesh - J You get an added advantage as you live in Bombay and I love Bombay, so double love for you! Despite of all your ‘bakwaas dialogues’ you are one of my favourites! Lots of love, and happiness to you!

And finally –

Jess and Saxy – The 3 of us have definetly had ‘some’ year! So many changes, so many realizations, better understanding. Its just all been scattered, and then collecting pieces too. I guess, i would be right in saying that this was the most ‘happening’ year in our entire friendship years! And we move ahead together, yet on our own paths towards our wishes! Love you people, beyond words! Muah!

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2014, I am waiting for you, I know its all worth it!

Striking the right cord or/and magic?/!

'Striking the right cord' seriously, sometimes I feel, whatever does that mean.

There are times, when I just feel, I don’t want to strike any cords and just want it to magically be melodious. Then again I feel, maybe the magic is happening, and am not seeing it, because I am too busy being cynical. Its just very disturbing how we build up a heap of question marks about ourselves, based on some perspective of some person, which is again based on their poor judgement. And we know this, but yet we let it affect us. Are we really [secretly] masochistic?  We wouldn’t like to agree, but then is there a better word for it? This new year I plan to get rid of these masochistic traits, and I shall desire for magic, magic in every day, magic in me! And for this time, I shall witness the magic, not resist it! And then for all you know, I will strike the cord! 

So 2014 is going to be my year at ‘Hogwarts’!With all the love potions and spells of destroying the internal blocks. Its gonna be a year of shining stars and clear blue skies, eventually, it will fall all right in place, and this time I would know it!