A Goofy Sunday!

So its one of those phase in life when life tells you 'Honey, I am life, I can do anything with you, absolutely anything! You either walk with me or rebel. This choice is yours!'  

Tough choice indeed! I did both.. and then made the decision to walk with it...it aint simple at all, but what the heck! Life has its mysterious ways to give you the best, and I will play along, as i want the best and so does my friend Goofy! Life for him too is knitting plans, plans of success, happiness and contentment!

Both of us are amazed looking at the awesomely strange path life has chosen for us! And we met to share this ‘happening event’ over a cup of coffee, which turned out to be more than that!

Not often do we meet, but whenever we, we compensate for the lost time! This time the compensation lead us directly into the clouds [i mean it, the picture along with this post will say it all!] An hour drive with some of the most beautiful evergreen songs. Yes! We spend this hour with kishorda, lataji, jagjit singh and many more[some ‘not original’ too] And yes, ofcourse goofy and his ‘goofiness’!

Reaching at our destination, i felt like i was wrapped in the blanket of green! If i could minus the crowd there, i am sure it felt i had reached another world. World of beauty, that i can not describe in words. You had to be there to see it! it was misty, the soft breeze humming and then the occasional monsoon shower! The image is captured in my heart and soul!

It was time to go back to the real world and we took our steps back! The fun wasn’t over yet, i told goofy that and he ensured that! The ride back was with same old melodies and the same old goofiness![i am smiling while i am writing this] returning to our coffee place we laughed some more, sighed a little and made plans to make spontaneous plans! It was a Sunday beautifully spend with unexpected smiles which will always linger in my thoughts! All thanks to goofy! It was a special day and will always remain so!

P.S – that was your birthday treat!

Intimacy with life...

 'I studied hard, yet scored less’ 

‘my friend ditched me’ 

‘my love life is pathetic’ 

‘nobody understands me’

‘my boss hates me’ ...and we could just overflow the ocean with the complains we have, and all of us sum it up in one sentence. ‘life is so unfair.’

A little pain, two drops of tears and first thing to be blamed is ‘life’.Its probably the easiest thing to do. And there is no denying, we all do it, even I! So if this is usual, what am i writing about here? 

Well I just got thinking, if life had life and would have been a man or a woman amongst us, would we still, so easily throw that ball of blame to life’s face? Have we ever wondered that when we say,’life is unfair’ and just then if life turns back and questions us,’have you been fair to me?' 

Really, have we been fair to life? Have we ever considered, its life that brings us in this world, takes us through our journey and then away from here. It sticks with us throughout, through our goods and bads. Have we ever taken this point into consideration?

When was the last time when you smiled or laughed or were loved and you whispered a ‘thank you’ or felt gratitude towards life? Aren’t we being ‘unfair to life’? Take out some time to spend with your life, just you and your life, say a hi, give a nod, let life know, that you value it, show some love, don’t we always say, 'we do good, we get good'. Lets all be ‘fair to life’ I am grateful, I love my life ,we are the partner in crime!

Love yours too and express it, after all we all need some love, our lives too! Get intimate with your life!

Imperfectly perfect!

I really wonder why does the word ‘perfect’ even exist. Personally I am not very fond of it, its an over-rated word. 

Most of the times I have seen/experienced in the search of this so called ‘perfect something' we lose out on to so many amazingly beautiful imperfect moments. The chase to ‘perfect’ I believe is the major issue to us. 

The horror of ‘perfection’ has been painted on us right from our childhood. Some of us are able to re paint it, choosing our favourite color, whereas some just get stuck with the same tint of the same color till their grave. Isn’t that sad?

If everything is supposed to be ‘perfect’ then what is the point of us even going through this journey called ‘life’ ? All of us here understand the importance of ‘perfection’ in everything we do. What I really wish is for all of us to know the equal importance of ‘imperfection’ too. Let both of it go hand-in-hand. 

There is nothing called as ‘perfect family’ or 'perfect job' or 'perfect relationship'. Its good to look ahead, but once in awhile glance back and appreciate the distance you have covered. Take some pride, you haven’t done bad mate! Hold for a moment, breathe a little, feel it! The day we stop struggling for perfection we will realize what we have had throughout was just so imperfectly perfect! 

The brightest star – thats for me!

The American actor Scott cann said - Good things happen when you get your priorities straight.

This statement set me thinking about how prioritizing your life changes its course.

Instead of preparing for good or bad in life, I prefer preparing for life as it holds your hand every moment!

As I look at my life from the priority point of view, I have scored decent.There have been times when I have chosen my priority, and at others I chose what attracted me.

The most crucial point is when one has to pick one of this –

 - I WANT to do this

and

 - I MUST do this

My friend purple says – ‘most of the times i have decided on ‘i want to do this’ but for major events in life i choose ’i must do this’ Its a difficult decision as priorities are not always as attractive as the other options that you are leaving behind.’

So my question here is...then why is it a priority in the 1^st place?

On which she smiles, her eyes twinkle and she replies! ‘the priorities in long term shine as bright as the brightest star and then nothing, absolutely nothing else seems attractive!’

I have chosen my priority, my other option being far more attractive. But I want the brightest star, not a temporary shine!

I believe it to be my most important decision..it makes me nervous...gives me sleepless nights...infinite thoughts...makes me lose my sanity...

But then who said the road to the brightest star was simple! :-)

Would you ever know that?

Living a routine, doing the chores...

Painting a picture for my life ahead..

My heart has always skipped a beat,

the moment you have crossed my mind!

Would you ever know that?

The times we have met...the moments we have lived

I re run in my mind...feel it in my heart

My cheeks have blushed deep red...

My knees have trembled a little..

I have smiled to myself,

and shut my eyes to feel your lips gently on mine

that unknown shadow, I would name it you.

Would you ever know that?

My eyes would be meeting my prince in the frame I paint,

Vows for life would be promised with him

I would be smiling, he too would be happy..

But as a strand of my hair will fall across my face..

And as the breeze would whisper in my ears..

In that small moment, I would think of you.

Would you ever know that?

I dare not say, I love you..

Where do i know what love is..

I barely can say...few moments I spent with you

Lasts with me for days to come...

You are the secret, I share with my desires..

You are the pleasure, my fantasies yearn..

You are the brightest stroke in the painting I paint

Would you ever know that?

Perfect connect...

How do we know, who is it? We meet uncountable number of people in our life. So how exactly do we know, with whom spending life would be worthwhile. Is there a formula or a set pattern to figure it out? Hasnt it been more than once, when we feel that this is the person for me?

Then just how do people out there, make the decision?

I have my little theory on this one too!

When we meet people we make connections with them, some of them become really strong. These connections become a part of our life. My friend Purple says,’ i have some connections in my life so strong that inspite of being out of touch for ages, we have made a comeback with the same intensity.’

I believe in connections, i understand when people use the phrase, ‘we just clicked.’ My confusion here is, how do i decide with which connection I would like to go ahead in my life and maybe get married and have a family? I always thought that one can love just one at a time [here by love i mean the true kinds!] But I was introduced to a very interesting perspective about this by purple, she says.’ At a time one can love more than one person[and she meant the true kinds] its just one has to decide, which love is worth taking further and which one is not. Many wont agree to this, but the few ones who have experienced this, would know what i am talking about.’

After hearing to this, I have been thinking,Ii wouldn’t disagree with purple, I would just put it into another words. There are many instances, when two people in a romantic relationship, over a period of time realize that they are very good friends and not exactly a romantic couple. I know, that friendship is very important in any relationship. But in this case, its upto the couple, if they wish to continue their romantic friendship connection, or they want to look out for ‘The Love’ connection if the later option is chosen then, its usually a mutual break up, but its a break up of romance, the friendship stays intact and it does not hurt either of them. And they go ahead to find their love. Here the person made a choice of the connection.

Which leaves me to think, if I ever have to choose my connection, which one would that be, ’romantic friendship’ connection’ or ‘the love’ connection?

Which would be my perfect connect?

If nothing then...

And its love, a little of compassion
With some more passion and burning fire,
If nothing then you can name it lust.
I spread my arms, stretch my fingers to trace you out of somewhere
I found some one, that’s not you, not at all you.
When do all dreams come true? Maybe fantasy this is…
So I pull him closer, and he grips my hair,
I divulge, I like, I say, love can wait…
If nothing then you can name it lust.
Days go, weeks pass, seasons change,
Again I see the budge happening,
The budge from fantasy to dream…
Out there I am again, to trace you out of somewhere,
Will this be the love I yearn or yet one of my phase I lust..
Between the conventional and the unconventional caught up me,
Churning the thoughts and the heart, I marvel, I see..
and then it strikes,
Let the storm blow me along, let I feel the madness along
Soon a day will rest me, I know,
Till then I be with some more passion and burning fire,
If nothing then you can name it lust.