Post 1 - Commitment...

[My first post of the '30 days commitment'  each day a new post, each day discovering a little more! 30 days of knowing myself better!]

Oxford dictionary defines commitment as, ’the state or quality of being dedicated to a cause, activity, etc.’

Commitment, something that I am trying to figure out recently. Something which I did not really think about much a few months back. It was just a random word, used frequently in and around.

But as we move ahead in life, we come across various concepts, some we let it pass by [we might probably come to it later sometime] and some we get hooked to, trying to understand it. I am trying to understand, ‘commitment’ the need and the place for it in my life.

I came across this very interesting pattern. Interesting because, I have been through the lower two phases, infact I till use it in an itsy-bitsy manner! But majorly, at this moment, I am on the third level, 'compliance'. Yes, I am trying to bridge the gap and reach the 'I will do it' phase.

Why commitment?
I realized out of all the fun and weird stuff, learnings and lessons stuff that I have been doing for all these years, I have been lacking commitment [towards myself]

When it struck me?
The time I realized I want a commitment from the external world, from other people, is when I looked inside and questioned myself, Am I committed in any way to myself? what was surprising is that I couldn't give an affirmative answer immediately, i had to think!
I have taken myself for granted for a really long time [we all do it.]
as cliche as it sounds, I decided to make a commitment to myself, for my well-being, my happiness, my inner peace. 
Once I started this, I started getting my answers from the universe/external world also.
The process is still on, may more answers to get.
I believe eventually i will get, and then there will be new questions too!
Lets us all Commit if nothing more than atleast ' to live a GOOD life!

P.S - In the journey of discovering commitment, I am taking some help from my blog! Its a 30 day commitment of writing. 30 new posts!

Thank You...!

Miracle! Yet another miracle life gifted me! This time the miracle was-‘A new chance’!

A chance for a better life of which I can only be grateful because I already have a great life and now its just going to get better! WoW! Am I life’s favourite or what?!

I have another shot at love, more happiness and more smiles!

‘It just happens, if you have thought of something all your life, it will happen, there are no two ways about it. You just need to hang in there and keep faith!’ These aren’t just words, this is what I saw, this is what I learnt and this is what I know. It might sound dreamy, but it works for me!

Atleast I am better off those people, who believe in being realistic and believe they have power over other lives! Only if they could for a moment hear themselves and realize how foolish they sound!

I just feel, lets not try to change others, or the world. Let us first try and know about ourselves. Let us first respect our own life journey, rest all will fall in place!

I will be clear, I am not here for any social service. If I manage to live a good life and value its gift, I believe I in my own way would be able to give back a lot to society. It all starts from within you.

This post is my way of saying ‘Thank you’ to life and the universe!

'Time off!'

It was just one of those coffee conversations which led me to thinking about emotional disconnects.

How at times it happens that we have literally lived that other person’s life, and how there comes a time, when you absolutely can not relate to that person. Such a huge shift, the vast distance. 

How does it occur? Does it mean that the equation of the relationships has completely changed? Has the love between the two diminished? Is it just a phase? Does the relationship become an obligation?

As we all know nothing is constant. But at times, we don’t wish to believe that [on purpose].

We hold on to people, relationships, belongings! But whatever we do/try, when the time comes the change happens. By change it does not necessarily mean that relationships end. It means that it evolves or new facets are seen and hence there are ups and downs. Not both partners can move the same way, some one takes time, some one is quick, and that causes the tug. Yes, ofcourse, sometimes we just let go off the tug and move ahead, it gets tiring and it also slows our journey. At such times, some move ahead, without the other one. 

And some move ahead, hoping that they will catch up soon. The relationship here does not end, but one of them definitely moves to a different platform, keeping an eye on the other one, wondering why cant they see? Why cant they too move? Isn't it obvious? Here comes the disconnect. 

But no, the love doesn’t diminish, the equation changes, but it can be for better! About obligation, well, I personally would say, Its just immense love and faith in the relationship and also since its unconditional, it can not be an obligation, its just the matter of time for the connection to get back![being optimistic here!]

I would believe its a phase, its a ‘time off’ given by the universe for the individuals to explore, get stronger, better, discover  abundance, so when the circle comes together again, it would be happier and lovelier than before. And the bond would just strengthen more!

Until then, utilize this phase, it is just one of the treats from life! 

'Forever' just for 'Now'...

Its the anger that plays, the madness that rules

The clenching of the teeth, to stop the damn tears

The fists are tight, nails digging in the palm,

Holding back the arms from falling in the hug,

The hug that wraps your world in.

Safe, secure, comfort,

you could spend your life.

Only to know, its just a moment, not more

Its just for the now, not more

I mistook your ‘forever’ for my ‘forever’,

I turn my back, not away from you,

But to not let my eyes tell you my story

Its not that you wont understand, that scares me.

Its that you might not see the story.

The pretense is easy, smiles play well

Seems all good, seems all fine

Just a little less of me, just a little more of pain

And

Its the anger that plays, the madness that rules.

Sweet love stories...

How sweet are they

Queasy in your stomach

And dizzy in your head...

Hopefull little heart pounding forever

How sweet are they...

Sweet love stories...some complete...some lost..

All u want is to rest in his arms,

Hear his heart, beating for you,

Strong arms protecting you.

Forever you could be in this embrace

Forever you could be in this love.

Prancing around, humming some tune

Smitten by him, you smile day in day out,

The fairies in the night watch you smile in your slumber too!

Be together, be apart...be the lover or was the lover..

The story is nothing less sweeter, the love is spilling all over!

They always are sweet...sweet love stories!

Its just not the time!

Who knew when these big wide eyes blinked,

A drop from the ocean would slip by

Smearing those minutes, those tiny-tiny seconds

The tears chained them with the brightest smiles

The hook so strong, so tight,

The smile reached the eyes, the tears reached the lips

Oh when the eyes blinked,

So did the heart beat a little extra,

Just trying to make up for its innocence!

Whispering in the lowest low, it shrugs

‘i lost some hope...i gained some’

With a silent prayer with every breath,

The love moves away from them to you

Remains behind is still the love

No less, no more, just as pure, as deep

It came very subtle tip-toed,

It still is here, all around with some words hanging in,

‘its just not the time!’

And these wide eyes know,

With the next blink its time to unhook the chain!

There is more to this...love

Can we call it off, wait for a while, rest and then start?

When life doesn’t wait for us, why do we wait for life to happen and then have unnecessary expectations. These ceaseless efforts and mind games we play to live a life which we are not even sure of. How unwanted and rewardless is this struggle, have we ever thought? What is with this whole perspective that only if we sweat it out, we will gain something.  Not everything requires hardwork, there are many of which we are worthy of and we have to learn to accept it with ease!

We need to be tutored to learn to live in the moment. We slaughter the good times, worrying about the future, and we make the bad times worse by complaining there is never good time! Why do we do this to ourselves? Constantly surviving in the self-destructive mode, we successfully close doors to abundance, success, love, positivity and create doorways to confusion, fears, negativity, sadness!

Its ok to have doubts but its not ok to not do anything about them. Yes there are times when you relate the least to the belief.’everything happens for good’. There are times when we say, we don’t want the best in future, we want what we had now, in the present! And then there are times, despite of all odds, somewhere deep you just believe, ‘ There is more to this’

Whatever the feelings are, all I want to say is, feel all, live all, love all because everything comes and goes, but love never ends! So even if i decide to call it off, wait for a while, rest and then start, I would still be calling it off, being in love, waiting for awhile in love, resting in love and then starting in love! J