My lil' clandestine...

Wow! yes this is exactly how I would like to sum up my present. Here wow is not just a word for excellence or brilliance; it slightly leans towards, unbelievably phenomenal occurrences in my life!

So much to say, so much to write, lets see if I can sum it up in few simple comprehensive lines.

I have adorned the tiara of the unexpected, literally! And for once I am not blabbering about it as I want to see it unfold on my own without any outer influence. Whatever the result be, it would be completely my responsibility, hence it’s a lil clandestine I share with me!

I have noticed, the feeling of keeping to yourself is different. No I am not turning out to be a loner or any other synonym to it. Its just an experiment I am conducting and this time the subject is me. Its interesting to see how your mind works on your own, when its not caught up with someone else’s. Your mind is conflicting with itself. It asks a question and finds the answer too to it. [It has to, as there is no external source to help it.]

I have been observing different facets of my mind since I have begun this experiment, the best one out of all is that I am able to think quicker, write better. I am absolutely clueless about the connection of the result and the experiment, but I am in the process of finding it out. Maybe its just a phase, maybe its not. But meanwhile the experiment is on! Meanwhile I am enjoying the secret affair of my mind and me! And as all affairs/relationships start out sweet and romantic, this one too is the same!

I owe it to me...

Aright, so at times things don’t work well, they don’t fall in place well, the puzzle doesn’t solve. So what? It happens to you also, to him or her also and to me also. Inspite of it being a big deal, its not a big deal!

Some pointers which I am very well AWARE [theoretically] and I fail to practice, but I know I MUST –

1 – The bigger you make the issue, that bigger it gets. Its like parenting the issue, giving it nutrition, care and nurture, so that it grows well.

Cut it out! Nip it in the bud. Remember, no issue is bigger than you!

2 – Do not dwell on it, thinking of possibilities how worse it could get.

Zip it out!

3 – its not a problem, its an issue. Just the word ‘problem’, sends out a negative vibe.

4 – Smile, it really helps! :-)

5 – Believe in yourself, you deserve the best, again ‘best’ is very subjective.

So it could be you deserve, everything you wish!

My friend purple says, 'Don’t think too much, because doing so, you will not come up with anything, plus you would be wasting your time doing so. Listen to everyone, every single person around you [ this way you would know what they really are, hypocrites, sadists, genuine, loving or adorable] but always do what that tiny voice in the back of your head asks you to do. Now, if you cant hear that voice, then there is chaos inside you, try to calm it down to hear that voice and follow it!

Giving a thought to what purple said, it does make sense to me!

Live it guys, live your life. By living I don’t mean, simply fulfilling the basic necessities, go out of the way, surprise yourself, commit sins, indulge,

We spend our childhood doing all the good things [ courtesy : constant parental attention]

Analyzing, contemplating, we can do it later. For NOW lets do things, loads of things, so that later in life, when we have absolutely nothing to do, other than look at our wrinkled faces, and bear the pain in our knee, then we could atleast analyze, smile, curse looking back at all the things we have done.

We owe it to ourselves. I owe it to me, that smile, that satisfaction, that happiness, that pleasure, is for me.

For him…its you

I always knew, it was someone else for you…

It would be her smile…that twinkle in her eye…

For which your heart would skip a beat..

After all the prince charmings and all knights in shining armour,

I feel my heart flip when I see you,

All the attention I get around, I let go..

the slight notice from you, Makes me take a notice

The castle, I start building, the future I start dreaming…

Is when there is a small tap,

Tap tap and my heart flaps.

‘you dream, you smile, but he is mine,

and its not just me who says,

Its him who too prays’….and here is a secret little

My dear girl. You knew it too, he was not for you!’

My lips twist, but only for a smile,

A smile that says it all…

For him who prays for you,

But for me, who adores him..

As silent as a whisper, I fancy his joy

And if its you, his joy

Then I remind myself

I always knew, it was someone else for you!

Just...

Its been long since my last post..and lots have happened since then.

If I have to think about learnings from it, then well, not yet, havnt arrived at that mind set as yet to analyze the situations.Things are happening and I am not able to control it even a tiny bit. One of the things which is taking a toll over me is that I know what I want, but I am not able to do it because certain constraints or maybe I am just not ready to take a risk. My brain just doesn’t stop thinking about every single thing, but implementation is zero. There is so much of work to be done on me, I realize now.

Sale - no sale, its all about the right choice!

The major sale season is almost over, [to be precise would be over on the 5^th of march]

Needless to say, its one of my favorite season, one season which I enjoy to the fullest..

Out of the sales everywhere, the best ones were the malls [I love malls]

Both the pune centrals, lifestyle, both shopper’s stops, SGS mall, jewel square.

Pune central

It has been renovated a while go, and has a huge Indian wear collection in the basement.

With many new brands introduced. But if you are looking for a variety in western apparel, then it has to be Pune central [university rd]. It has good collection [colours, styles, sizes, brands] and for the foodies, a decent food court too.

For this sale season, I wasn’t disappointed at these malls at all. I felt this was one of centrals’s best sale in terms of availibilty of variety of apparels.

Overall as a mall – its good

Lifestyle

The major attraction for me here is their in house brand,’Ginger’ A young vibrant brand.

Girls who are into funky Tees, checkout Ginger, reasonable rates, bright colours, fun slogans. I like it. Also their bags and footwear are not to be missed! I got introduced to the brand ‘Forever new’ at lifestyle for the 1^st time.

FYI – Forever new is one brand which I can say I saw it reaching the skies[in terms of pricing] It’s a very feminine brand. I have seen the rates literally multiplying every year!

The lifestyle sale was strictly ok this time.

Overall as a mall – I feel it needs to do something about it. The billing method/the attendants/salesmen, something really needs to be done about it. Except for the sales girl at the lingerie section, the rest of the staff have no clue, what are they upto.

SGS mall

If I would be going there, that would only be for munching, not for shopping.

Its not my favorite mall and last option to go for shopping. It has Westside.

Well, Westside, once upon a time used to be in my favorite list, its had amazing sportswear. But gradually, Westside has gone bad. Its repetitive with its designs, there is nothing new to offer.[if floral, and garden prints are what they like, then please get innovative in that atleast]

I have no clue about the sale here!

Shopping wise the good thing there is the brands of jeans, ad jeans is something which we don’t by very often. That’s why, SGS is not a shopping destination for me.

Overall as a mall – its decent, just that the crowd there these days is hmmm [not so good]

Shoppers stop.

The 1^st mall in pune. Shoppers stop wakdewadi, I have nothing to say. Its just not me!

The Shopper stop nucleus mall, I like it. Its not too big, but still, it doesn’t disappoint me.

The only hitch, I find is they don’t have BIBA kurtis, there is just the whole salwar kameez ssts. The in house brand STOP, is not very great. Especially their churidars/leggings, are a strict no-no.The best churidars/leggings are those of W and biba!

The best part of shoppers stop nucleus mall is their salesmen, specially at the footwear section. They are exceptionally good, helpful and will definitely help you find what you want. The sale was good. The crowd is always decent.

Overall as a mall – if you go to shoppers stop after a gap, you will always like this mall! Just don’t be regular there.!

Jewels square

The visit to this mall I try to keep it as less as possible. Reason being – it burns big holes in my pretty pockets!

The sale this time was unexpectedly good here. The brands I watch out here, are MUAH, AND, CHEMISTRY,

MANGO sucks here! Its just the pune collection, I have seen MANGO collection at Mumbai and it seems, that all rejected stuff is displayed at the pune MANGO.

PROMOD lacks colours.

The best thing that jewel square brought in pune is and improvised trend of lingerie shopping. It is expensive but it is totally worth it. Girls save a little extra, but don’t compromise on this one!

Awaiting the next sale season! untill then shopping goes on!

Sunday, the 13th

Today is my 5th day of 7 day positivity activity and today i want to thank those people of whom i don’t have to be worried of being judged or give them justifications. These are the people, i can be absolutely myself!

1 – Joysingh – jessy and baldeep, both these names will always come together in my life always! Describing the relation i share with them is beyond my words. I love you jess and love you my saxy! Muah!

2 – Fatanglu and Menon[priyanka] – Fatanglu who has seen/accepted/tolerated all my tantrums and mood swings without a single complain! And Menon, well...hush...hush...giggle..giggle...look here and there...giggle...hush...[to the 3rd person] ya..so what were you saying...

3 – Maathya – have had some of the best of time with him. The crazy bike rides and trips to sheesha, sitting on the footpath, gymming together and just being totally mad!

These are few people who affect my day to day life, most of the times making each day memorable[ it could be fun, awesome, not so good, bad at times...but always memorable!]

4 – penaaz and ninad – for obvious reasons!

5 – The MA team – penaaz[again], vinay, shraddha and the others. All the bournville moments, gossips, tiny-winy work. It is awesome with you guys!

6 – The programming team[my team], Aditi, Smita, Roshan, Ninad, Mrunmayee, Yogesh, Sarang, Ashish and sherry. All those songs, leg pulling, teasing, laughters, all fun. A full on fun team!

7 – i am very very very thankful to aroma cafe[the pradhikaran one]

8 – And for there being rivers and seas and beaches! I love water, love being beside it, it is the most pleasant sight for me! [thats why my love for Goa..!]

While writing this, my heart is filled with abundance of gratitude for everything around me. I am glad i am doing this!

Saturday, the 12th

And here goes my thank you list...

1 – I am thankful that i have a car, It does burn a lot of money, my leg hurts at times driving in the mad traffic, but nevertheless I love driving my car, don’t have to worry about anything, when i am in my car!

2 – I thankful that there is something called is CURDS. I love applying curds to my hair, It makes it clean, smooth, shiny and so soft[ i just applied it!]. and it does not cost me!

3 – Thankful to my brother Abhishek, to introduce me to the world of Harry potter, who instilled reading habit into me and who helped me build in the bollywood madness in me.

4 – To my cousins chicky-micky! They are my babies!

5 – To Eric Segal, for all the books! I love them all, and my favourite is DOCTORS!

6 – To Deepti, Penaaz and Ninad to give me the name CINDRELLA [ for what ever reason it is!] i like it!

7 – For there being an action like a, ‘KISS and a SMOOCH’...! [I am sure, all of us would be thankful for it..! ;-)..]

Had been home today for just few hours to surprise my mom! And she told me that even she is following this activity i told her to..! And i don’t know if she feels any change, but i saw how she was extremely excited about our love birds laying eggs. All the while i was there; she kept insisting me to come up the terrace to see them! I kept thinking about it all the way when i was driving back from my home.I loved seeing her this way today!