Post 11 - Ever thine, Ever mine, Ever ours!

There is so much I want to give

So much more I wish to live

Only If I could see a shadow, alongwith mine

And if there would be us and not just mine

Red with rage, not because there is anger,

But an urge for someone to pat my cheeks

go that extra mile,

to make me smile!

Is it me who pushed him away or he lost his way?

On my bed, waiting i lay

I sleep well, live well,

I know, he who loves will wish me to be fine!

So here I am, all fine, all in love

To take some peace, some more of love

To be a little shy, to be a little more blissful

And

There is so much I want to give

So much more I wish to live

Only If I could see a shadow, alongwith mine

And if there would be us and not just mine

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As I am writing this, I think of the letter by Ludwig Van Beethoven called 'Immortal beloved' and the last line of the letter ,'Ever mine, Ever Thine, Ever ours!' Everytime I read it, I think of this line, I just feel, this is my line, it just seems it has come out of my heart, my soul! 

The letter - 

While still in bed my thoughts turn towards you my Immortal Beloved, now and then happy, then sad again, waiting whether fate might answer us - I can only live either wholly with you or not at all, yes I have resolved to stray about in the distance, until I can fly into your arms, and send my soul embraced by you into the realm of the Spirits - yes unfortunately it must be - you will compose yourself all the more since you know my faithfulness to you, never can another own my heart, never – never – O God why do I have to separate from someone whom I love so much, and yet my life in V[ienna] as it is now is a miserable life - Your love makes me at once most happy and most unhappy - at my age I would now need some conformity[,] regularity of my life – can this exist in our relationship? – Angel, I have just heard that the mail coach goes every day – and thus I must finish so that you may receive the letter immediately. – be patient – only through quiet contemplation of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together – Be calm; for only by calmly considering our lives can we achieve our purpose of living together.- be calm - love me - today - yesterday - What yearning with tears for you - you - you my life – my everything - farewell - oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your Beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever us.